Paradox - Me, Myself and I

I'm such a fucking paradox. I look at myself, and I can already see the straight jacket on me.

Seriously, there's something wrong with me.

I'm a vegetarian. Or am supposed to be. No scratch that. There's no word for what I am. I just got so completely used to saying I'm a vegetarian because of the stupid people who would ask me why I wouldn't eat the disgusting school lunches that they fed us.

Here's the low down: I DON'T LIKE MEAT. Pure and simple. I mean, animal cruelty is sad and all, and I would stop it if I could, but frankly, I don't really care. Go over load on red meat and die. Not my problem. I like leather. I like fur. I want to own a piano with actual ivory keys, just for the sake of owning it, since I have absolutely no musical talent.

The environment-my take. I like the environment. I like the feel and smell of fresh air. I am not a nature boy, though. I'm a city boy, through and through. If I camped, I would die. In my "opinion" - which means I'm right you're wrong - the generations before us fucked up the environment and left it for us to clean up. Thank you, ever so much!

Ok. Religion. Don't like it. I dislike it, a lot.

People have warped something so beautiful, as getting close to god, in order to manipulate others into their way of thinking. For example - Gay Marriage. They say that the bible says "if a man lieth with another man, they have committed an abomination." Or something like that.

BUT! The bible also says, "Judge not lest ye be judged yourself." Which basically means, to all you belief-pushing religious people, shut the fuck up! You are in no position to judge! It's none of your business! People's business with God, is exactly that - THEIR business with God! Butt out!

This also applies to atheists. Shut the fuck up! Seriously! We get it, you don't believe in God! We don't care! You're acting like damned assholes, criticizing our beliefs! We don't care what you believe! I know I don't. You have your doctrine - keep it to yourself!

I'll repeat this slowly. KEEP. YOUR. BELIEFS. TO. YOURSELF. NO. ONE CARES!!!!

Ugh. Seriously. Atheists are just as bad as right-wing conservative Christians.

Now to those who live by the bible? Ok. You better not quote anything at me. Just don't. Because according to the some religions, women are inferior to men. I just don't like that.

Example: Adam's first wife. Lilith. She was made the same as Adam from clay, or dirt, or whatever Adam was made from. She also believed herself equal to Adam. So, she got kicked out of Eden, and Adam got Eve. Huh.

Random Tidbit: Lilith also wanted to have sex on top of Adam.

Remember - This is what I personally believe. You are under no obligation to believe the same things I do. I would really like to hear your opinion.

Okay. Back to me. 'Cause its always about me.

I'm fucking bi-polar. I can be beyond happy one minute, and try to stab you to death the next.

I love people, but yet I hate them all. Well most of them. Just about 98% of the population.

I have low self-esteem and no confidence in myself; yet I have a superiority complex and am somewhat snobbish. To some people.

I hate the whole little "gangsta" scene, yet some of my closest friends are like that.

I hate Twatlighters, yet I know that given the chance, I would be like them, but with Anita Blake. {OMG!RandomFanBoySqueeee!!}

I like other people make choices for me, but get annoyed when the pick the wrong one.

I believe I'm always right. Which is true. Usually.

I love honesty in people, but I love to lie to people.

I don't write this to offend people. But if you are...Oh well. Get over it. I have. But, seriously, I would love to hear any advice or comments you have. As long as they aren't stupid.

Seriously. There's something really wrong with me.

Stress is bad for you.....very, very bad.

Ugh. I'm stressing to like the max today. And yesterday. And probably tomorrow, too. I sincerely need a vacation, a really long one. With sand and water and sweet drinks with little umbrellas. Or just a massive amount of sleep. Lol! I could totally use that right about now......

So yeah, I need a job. Yet another thing to stress over. Ugh. I hate having to need money. Have you ever wondered what the world would be like without money? I have, alot. At first it was like this perfect society, but then I noticed that it wouldn't really work. So yeah, its true. No one would do anything, because they wouldn't get anything in return. Humans are so messed up mentally.

I'm about to pimp out my copy of "Guilty Pleasures" by Laurell K. Hamilton, to my friedn, in order to get her away from that "Twatlighter" phase. Although she liked it before people began to like whore it out, and like violate it, so she's technically not a twatlighter....hmmmmmmm.....

I've been getting story ideas like crazy today, even though it's been a weird day. I was about to like have a panic attack in my geometry class, whilst taking a test. That's how stressed I am. All my fucking homework, and stupid tests! Dude! I need a break..............Just one day off of school would be fucking awesome!

I found out that Yahoo! has a new email thing (ex. @yahoo.com). I like it. its example @ rocketmail.com! Rocketmail! I love it! LMAO! I'm probably gonna get one.....

Well, anywho, I have to go now, just 'cause I'm awesome like that. Lol!

Candy and Handcuffs! Lol!

Random Quote of the Day: "You'd think as long as I was gambling with my soul, I would have thought to get Mab to throw in fifty bucks a hour plus expenses." - Harry Dresden (Summer Knight)

Vampires.........the real ones. P.S - college paperwork sucks.

OMG........

The people at my school are stupid. There is no other explanation. I mean I go on field trips that they let me go on, yet they mark me absent! I hate it! I keep getting calls about clearing my damn non-existent absences! Grrrrrr.........

I still haven't finished my drawings, but I need today because I have to scan them tomorrow. Ugh.

I've been filling out applications and piles of paperwork to be able to apply for the AP exam, not to mention the SAT. I sincerely feel like I'm going to die suffocated under paperwork! I also have to pay all of these fees......it's all just a pain in the ass. I fucking hate it!! I can only imagine how bad it's going to be next year when I'm applying for colleges!

I was registering for the SAT, today....I was so lost!! I felt retarded! I don't know shit about paperwork, and colleges, and financial aid! Arrggghhhh!! I was looking for my potential majors for the stupid application online and it took me forever to find them! I'm just lucky that I didn't have a test today in the class that I missed today....

On a separate note, I decided to save money to buy myself an iPod. One of those 120 gig ones, mainly because I have a whole bunch of video files on my computer that I don't want to lose. I just need to convert them, put them on my non-existent iPod, and there we go! Or I go. Eh.

I also decided to take a SAT prep class. This one is actually free for us underprivileged kids. Never thought that would actually help! Lol! I just need a 20-something dollar deposit! Yeah, not so free.

I finished "Fool Moon". I very proud to have been able to finish it. That book had been like my Everest! What without all of the non-existent free time I've had.......ugh. I can't wait for vacation! I need one, badly.

So yeah, "Fool Moon". It was pretty good. I liked it, but not as mush as the other. Maybe its because I wasn't really feeling it.....I wasn't able to read more than a few chapters at a time. I decided to completely bypass "Grave Peril" and went straight to "Summer Knight", in which professional wizard, Harry Dresden, faces various unruly Fey. Its very good, the I-can't-put-down kind of good. At least for now.

OMG! I can't wait until June! The 17th Anita Blake novel is set to come out! I'm like all giddy! At least kinda...I try, but not really feeling the giddiness. I also read the first chapter for "Dead and Gone" which is the 9th Sookie Stackhouse novel! I'm anticipating it with held breath. Lol!

So I heard that Stephen King has been attacking Stephanie Meyer's writing......well seeing as I hate Twilight......i would say Whoo! But then i feel sad.....I'm very bi-polar about this issue. I mean I detest Twilight, with what people burning it. I mean my cousin told me that this one girl told him that (and I quote) "You're not a real vampire fan if you haven't read Twilight..."

Yeah. Well girl, whoever you are, If you are reading this....

FUCK YOU! Seriously, shove your shit back up your ass, cuz i don't wanna hear it!

You are not a real vampire fan if you haven't read "Dracula"! Twilight vampires and real vampires!! They're "wampires"; they don't even deserve the "V"!! I mean, seriously? Eating people is like the whole premise of vampires! (except for Angel {B:tVS}, but I don't want to open that particular can of worms, or else I'll never stop ranting!) If the only vampire novel you've read is "Twilight", then you can't call yourself a vampire fan! Go read Anita Blake, Sookie Stackhouse, Hellsing, The Dresden Files, Vampire Knight! Go watch Buffy : the Vampire Slayer, Angel, Supernatural (although not really, same goes for The Dresden Files, heh)! But if you even dare call yourself a Vampire Fan, please don't let your only credit to that be "Twilight"!

There. Bite me. If you are a "Twilight" fan, well stop crying, or whatever shit you're doing now, and don't you dare reply! Go whore out your fucking logo!

Random Quote of the Day: "Real crying is like real sex. If you do it right, it isn't pretty." -Anita Blake: Vampire Hunter (Burnt Offerings- a real vampire novel)